JC SiLent:You cant be that far away from me ; if we're looking on the same side of the moon
Friday, March 31, 2006
think i better state tt all my dears are my gf actually. it is a very health and normal frendship. i dun wan to go thur rounds of "counselling" cos i seems to prefer gals than guys. i still like guys lah..
anyway i am going to be counselled by a PT "counsellor" to bring me to the "rite path". given tt i am such a stubborn person, it will be tough to convince me tt the world is nt wat i assume and think it is. i use my heuristic [using some esap b4 i forget if nt my revision will be wasted]to judge ppl and thing.. simply jumping to conclusion at times since i dunno them to allow my congnition to be consistent. anyway i dun have a chance to noe more and understd better. need to withness or experience certain thing myself at times b4 i believe tt it is true. need new info to attack my current congition in order to change it to a more netural one and prevent any congitive dissonance.
i think 'worries and fears' have been growng among them. but sorry there is nt much i can do abt it.. in a helpless situation. waiting for "miracles" or events to happen to create some hopes for me lah..
will be doing hse visiting today. guess i can hug my gf and shed some tears of joy. she sound cheerful and gd over the phone. guess she is recovering well and stuff. i am relieved tt there is no infection or complication if nt it will be dangerous and troublesome.
& 11:33 am
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
went to be a PA [personal asst] last wk.
congrat to my gf tt her life is going to change.
how i wish i could hug her and shed some tears of happiness.. but is ok. i can do these aft she recover.
hopefully mor gd news will reach my ears lah..
to brighten my life..
& 11:31 am